Thursday, June 20, 2013

from Mom



From mom:
 I feel like I was running and hit a brick wall head on. I bragged that Lily was my money bag due to her surgeries and my Benny Boy was my little healthy 30 lbs. ball with never one thing wrong. I am shocked, saddened and my heart literally hurts when I look at those big brown eyes looking at me. I can't stop the tears from flowing. I try not to let him see me cry because he will come over, sit in front of me and stare. I am sure he is telling me a thousand words. I have had pets my entire life, every one so special but the thing about Benny and Lily is that I found them on my own. They're "mine."

All of your words, thoughtfulness and generosity is extremely overwhelming. I write these words because you understand. There is an outpouring of support from you, Facebook and Twitter friends. I don't know what to say except I love my Benny boy. (and of course my monster Lily)
I look at Lily who appears a bit depressed. She lays close to Benny, which she used to prefer a little space. She refuses to be alone. I will comfort both, and continue to make them as happy and comfortable as they can be. Frankie and a friend Khristine from the French Bulldog Rescue Network said to me in the same day, it's about the quality of Benny's life, not the quantity.  I do know that for sure. I would never want him to suffer.

Thank you again friends. It means the world to us.



94 comments:

  1. You fight... And you are right: no suffering. But for now: fighting!!!!

    Thinking of Benny, Lily and you
    *huuuuugs*
    (Sorry my English is not soooo good :()

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  2. Benny is strong and tough. He'll face this fight with the same strength, as long as he has you in his corner!

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  3. My thoughts are with all of you & I am so terribly sorry!

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  4. Your thumbs, and Benny and Lily have brought a lot of joy to the blogger and Facebook world. How could we react but to try to express that to you at this difficult time. I know that Benny (and Lily) know in their hearts that there Mom is the best! *hugs to all*

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  5. You will reach deep inside yourself and find the strength to face each day, Benny and Lily will show you the way.
    Praying for each of you.
    Stella Rose, Mag's, Baby Gussie and Momma

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  6. you follow your heart...he knows how much you love him...

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  7. Thinking of you all at this difficult time.
    Much Love & Hugs
    Jo & The Pugs in the UK xxxxxx

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  8. You are always in my thoughts - I know Benny will win this fight - he is a Frenchie and they never give up.

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  9. It's very hard to go through this but in the end the love we give and receive from our pups is worth the heartbreak. Hugs (and pets) to you all!

    Your Pals,

    Family of Murphy & Stanley

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  10. We have very sad for you, but keep hope. Tought and love.

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  11. We here DO understand. Nothing like the pain of seeing our pups in distress. Know that we care and are praying for all of you.

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  12. We are there for you. We are praying for you all and you are in our thoughts. Blogville is there for you, each and everyone of us and what little we have we are only too happy to share.
    Be strong, we know that is not easy.
    Best wishes Molly

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  13. Have thought of Benny and your family all week... I wish there was something I could do besides pray.

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  14. Sending all the prayers and comfort we have to you. Keep up the fight, Benny.

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  15. If you're like our Mom & Dad you will love us, no matter what we do or have to go through, and thats why we understand all the pain you guys go through. We understand the not wanting to let us see you crying or being depressed, BUT WE KNOW!and we like it that you care so much about us. So you go ahead and show Benny! Hey Buddy we are still ending only good thoughts!OK

    The Mad Scots

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  16. Having worked as a vet tech for years it made me constantly sad and angry when people would keep a pet living when they knew it was suffering. It is HARD to let go of something you love more than life itself but keeping it going for yourself is not right - the best interest of the pet should always be at the forefront - so yes I agree - it is the QUALITY of the life - not the quantity. I too have had dogs and cats all my life and have many such battles when cancer or some other disease has taken my furbabies from me - but my memories of each and every one is them is so special because I don't have have to remember them dying slowly and painfully - instead I held their paws - cried buckets of tears and kissed their beautiful heads as they slipped gently from our world and over the rainbow bridge. The respect of dying gently is the final and most precious gift we can give our furbabies. Our thoughts and prayers are with you all - lots of hugs.

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  17. I definitely understand completely. Our dogs are family to us. Our Blogville furiends are family to us. Miracles happen all the time, especially with so much love and support. Me, my husband, Sarge, and the crabby girls continue to send you our warm and healing vibes.
    Lori

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  18. I believe in miracles and pray for Benny each day. When I look at him, I see my own baby. My prayer is that your next doctor's visit will yeild some positive information. Stay strong, your are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Sharon Carstens

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  19. My heart aches for you while you watch Benny go through this. And, I am one to totally agree, it's the quality, not the quantity. With all of Corbin's issues, I have come to realize he's not going to live a long life, but whatever years he does have will be lived to the fullest. Benny is showered with your love every day and has enjoyed every moment with you. Every new moment is just another day to make his life fulfilling. We love Benny and Lily and hope everything turns out for the best!
    -Corbin's momma, Jenn

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  20. Dogs are in the moment, not conflicted by thoughts of past and future...that is the burden of being human. He is grateful for every moment with you. Hugs and warmth and healing energy to you all!

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  21. Lots of positive vibes and AireZen is coming your way!
    (((hugs))) to the three of you!

    Love ya lots♥
    Mitch and Molly

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  22. Live and love each day to the fullest. That's the lesson our pals teach us. Sending love and hugs.

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  23. Thinking of you and sending love and prayers.
    Love and hugs
    Chrissi & Mathilde

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  24. My mum and I have not posted on your blog before, but my mum wanted to say that all of our thoughts and prayers are with you. So far, she has only lost cats to age, illness, etc. We agree that it is the quality of the life left. right now we are fostering a 14 year old poodle who has some issues (incontinence and cataracts). Her original owners had her for all her life until they got a divorce -- not sure what happened, but the first foster mum she went to returned her in anger and told foster group to put her to sleep cos of her incontinence; and the foster group hesitated to give her to us cos of it, but my mum said "bring 'er over and we'll just put down more pee pads!!" So that is what we do. Mum jokes that she takes April out and she pees and poops; brings her back and she pees and poops!!! Mum has learned not to walk around without lights on cost of the poops and pees!!!!!!

    Anyway, she is going off at an tangent (always a problem with these old broads (she is 71 after all) -- oops she is gonna be mad at me for that comment, lol. but anyway, know that all of us (2 dogs, 2 adult cats and 2 foster kitties) and thinking of you constantly and have all our paws crossed and mum has her legs crossed for you.

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  25. I will continue to hope and pray for Benny. I hope you will have as much quality time with him as possible...he knows how much you love him and that you will do the best you can for him.

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  26. I will continue to pray for a miracle here.

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us - many of us have been where you are right now. You have our support and love as you go through this. You are such a great dog mom - I have no doubt you will do what is best for Benny.

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  27. We too continue to pray for a miracle for Benny. He IS a very special little man who means the world to so many. Blogville is here with you every step of the way!

    Benny (and Lily) are VERY blessed to have you as their loving and caring Mom. We know you will always do the best for them.

    Keep fighting Benny!!

    Hugs,
    Lily Belle & Muffin

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  28. Thoughts and prayers are with you guys. Hang tough!!!

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  29. Yes, we do understand, my family was in a position like that with Sprint, the poodle before me. They knew when it was time and yes, it is the quality although Sprint was 18yrs. He gave love and he was loved and it was very hard. For now, it is Keep Fighting Benny, we believe in miracles.

    Paws crossed here for you and you are in our hearts and prayers also
    Love
    Diana, Jazzi and Addi

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  30. Dear Mom,
    Everytime I read your posts and comments I am in tears over sweet Benny, Lily and you. Your love and positive energy is the best thing you can give. More hugs sent your way from Skoog Farm.

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  31. My heart breaks for you. There is nothing worse than seeing our furbabies ill.
    I am sure that Benny will be happy and contented with you and Lily.
    Lynne x

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  32. My heart breaks 4 u as well. I know Benny will be happy with u at this time. U r very brave
    Urban hounds

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  33. Praying for you and your Frenchie family. I lost my 5 1/2 year old Frenchie, Lola, to a brain tumor two years ago. I was blindsided. Her life had just begun. Life is so fragile and all we have is the moment we are in. She may not run by my side, but she has made her furever home in my heart, and thus still with me at all times. For some reason this is the plan and I'm so sorry.

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  34. Benny and Lily and you mean so much to us. We feel like we've all been "family". We are heart broken with you, and wish we could "fix this".
    But we cannot fix this,,,
    We love you all so much, and have not stopped thinking about Benny and you and Lily- not even for a second.
    Please keep talking to us. Let your feelings fall into our hands like the rain drops. We will gentle hold them.
    We surround all of you with our love.
    When you feel like your falling- we will be here to pick you all of you up.
    love
    tweedles and moms

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  35. Our thoughts and prayers are with you ... we love you!!!!!

    Love Zoe, Peyton, Webster, Liberty & Whitney

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  36. Keeping our paws crossed for you Benny! We were just thinking of last year and the beach ball blogville olympics event. That's when we got to know you and your blog. We are hoping you beat this Liver Cancer so we can all play beachball again someday!

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  37. We are right there beside you fighting for Benny!! We all love you and will continue to support you in any way we can. FLAF! xoxo Chloe and LadyBug and Jeanne

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  38. I visit your their FB page daily and look through it for updates, if I didn't I'd be asking you daily how Benny is doing.

    I've never met you or your furbabies but have followed your blog and then your FB page when I was first blogging for Schnauzer-tude!

    You, Benny and Lily have been on my mind since this started. You cry and we cry with you.. but for now chin up, be strong... Because whatever time he has on this earth should be filled with nothing but positive and healing thoughts.

    Thank you for keeping us posted, I can only imagine your heart aching while writing this post... it's not easy, we all know it and no matter how many family pets we have or how often we go through it, it seems to get harder. BUT you are not alone...


    A huge hug for you from me and tons of belly rubs to both Benny and Lily.


    xoxoxo
    Claudia and the Tude's

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  39. We all wish there was some magic wand we could wave to make the sickness and sadness go away. Each and every one of us shares in your pain. Enjoy every moment with him. Those will never lost, whatever happens.

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  40. We believe in MIRACLES. WE believe in the LOVE you have for our furend. We never know what tomorrow will bring... it may be tears or treasures. We Hope and Plan for tomorrow but FIRST we SAVOR Today!

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  41. Benny, Lily, and their Momma
    I believe in miracles.
    Love Noodles

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  42. We keep you in our thoughts and prayers. What Frankie has said is so true. Savor today, love like there is no tomorrow. we are all here for you
    love
    Bailey, Hazel, Greta & Mom

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  43. Our hearts are broken. Mom knows what you're going through, because our family went through a difficult time like this four years ago. They had a dog, named Sophie, who got very sick, very suddenly. It was such a shock, and still is to this day. But, we do agree about Quality over Quantity. We're walking these steps with you - please find comfort in that. Sending all the cyber hugs we can muster ~ Stewey and his mom

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  44. We will continue to hold all of you close to our hearts as WE take this journey with you.

    Sending you our love and support.

    Blessings,
    Janelle, Maggie Mae and Max

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  45. I will continue to keep my paws crossed for Benny and you all. We have all been there, and most certainly know how tough this is. There is no easy answer. There is only the love you have for your furkids that will guide you.
    Sendin' you lots of AireZens....
    {{{hugs}}}}
    Kisses,
    Ruby

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  46. We are still here sending you love.

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  47. Oh Mom our heart breaks for you, we are all here for you, ALL of Blogville and we all love you guys so much.. Don't cry, you have us in tears now.. Every night in our prayers.. xx00xx



    Mollie and Alfie

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  48. Benny, Lily, and Andrea,

    Wish we were there to give you a big hug. I can hardly type through my tears. I know you don't ever want him to suffer, but it is so very hard to imagine life without one of them. We are keeping all of you in our prayers. Benny and Lily won my son over to loving Frenchies. FLAK!!!!

    Janice, 2 Pugs and a Boxer Mix

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  49. You have a world of LOVE behind you!! God is with you and so are we!! Prayers for Peace, Comfort, and Healing. Always, Lisa, Donna, Blaze, & Jersey Girl.

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  50. We love you Benny. We agree with your friends. As long as he is having some quality of life...all's good.

    XXXOOO Daisy, Bella & Roxy

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  51. My heart goes out to you. I know how difficult this is as I have been through it before. I know you will do what is best for Benny. I will pray for all of you.

    Anne and Sasha

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  52. Times like these are so tough. We will keep the good thoughts coming.

    Pat
    Critter Alley

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  53. My heart goes out to you, I wish I could be there to give you a hug and to kiss Benny & Lily....please know that I hold you ALL close to my heart

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  54. I have no comforting words to share. We knew the end was near with Thor, although I never posted about it because I was too grief stricken. My heart is with you, and I'm crying right along with you.

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  55. I know there is nothing anyone can say. In many ways this is a journey you have to make alone. But know we are all standing behind you sending you good vibes and love.

    The joy of loving a pet is always offset by the pain when one is sick. It is the balance of life.

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  56. Paws crossed here and sending you all the love and support you need.

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  57. We are here for you as much as we possibly can be from across the country.

    Hugs & love,
    Pam & Oskar

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  58. Sending good thoughts and prayers to Benny.

    xo Cinnamon

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  59. We've been there recently and know what you' re feeling. I wish there were words to esse your pain. Just know that a lot of people are thinking about you and the pups and sending their love.
    Sue

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  60. That is such a precious photo. We are so sorry you have to go through this. It isn't easy by any means. Lily probably is feeling a bit down, but it is good for her to go through this with Benny. We think it will help her understand better and deal with things long term much better. Ciara and Thunder are very close, and since Thunder has been sick this week, she seems a bit stressed too. Love has its ways for sure.

    Hang in there, we all love you and are here for you.

    Woos - Phantom, Thunder, Ciara, and Lightning

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  61. My heart is with you, bleeding along with yours. Please hold Benny and Lily close, and give them a kiss from me. I've been in your shoes, and I know that there's nothing that I can say that will truly help, except to let you know that we are thinking of you all the time and sending you our love.

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  62. Blogville and FB are such strong communities of support and love in the tough times. We are all pulling for Benny and hope it is of some comfort to know how many people are crying with you...

    Wyatt's mom

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  63. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Benny is a good boy.

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  64. I know firsthand how hard a cancer diagnosis is to hear. It's almost paralyzing because you fear any decision could be the wrong decision. I felt so much pressure before we made decisions about how to treat Blueberry's cancer that I almost couldn't function and do anything else. Please know that whatever you decide is the best thing for Benny, that we'll support you in it!

    Bunny's mom

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  65. We've been there and know each day will bring it's up and downs but your pups will never doubt for one minute they're your number one. Our thoughts are with you all!

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  66. My heart breaks for you...we would wrap all three of you in a giant hug if we could. Keeping Benny in our thoughts and prayers and hoping he stays strong and you can share and enjoy many, many precious moments together. We're sure that Lily is feeling sad, just like everyone else, and she just wants to be close, supporting Benny in every way she can. Benny...we are thinking of you!

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  67. Still praying for you all...you are in our thoughts.
    xo Chloe, LadyBug and Jeanne

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  68. You know what ? The doctor in oncology who looked after my mom, several years ago, now works with a vetenary school ! See here : http://fr.linkedin.com/pub/mario-campone/4a/236/727

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  69. You're right, we do understand. We're all animal lovers, and probably most of us have gone through the pain of beloved companions getting ill and/or elderly. Like you, I've always had animals in my life, and each relationship is special. But there was one little girl, a pit bull puppy I rescued off the streets in San Francisco, who became my most beloved friend of all. Maybe because we were really rescuing each other.
    We are all here for you. Please, lean on us if you need support. Kisses to Lily and Benny!

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  70. Our hearts, love, tears,hugs n prayers are with you all....It hurts more than you can express, we know but we believe Benny will be alright. Fight hard, dear Friend

    You are so dearly loved, Benny. Always have been and always shall be..

    “It is often in the darkest
    skies that we see the
    brightest stars.”
    ― Richard Evans

    Love n hugs n wags,
    Ginger, Buddy, Shadow n Mummy

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  71. You are all in my thoughts and prayers. xxx

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  72. You are all in our thoughts and prayers. Good luck. Love from Monkey's family

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  73. Hugs and prayers coming your way - en masse! I know the agony of these days so well. They are bitter-sweet - embued with grace. We lift you up in our thoughts and encouragement.
    I can't tell recommend strongly enough to simply 'Live in the Moment' and enjoy all that your sweet pup still has to offer. He will surprise you with what he can still give you. We love you and we love your sweet Benny and Lily. Hang in there and know that we are with you in this.
    With love
    MAXMOM, TAMMY, TOBY and LEXI.

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  74. We tried to comment last night but it didn't appear to go through. I am beyond saddened to read this and so sorry to hear of Benny's troubles. You are all in my thoughts. Stay strong and loving, that's all you can do right now. xo ~ Katie and Coccolino

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  75. WE are so sorry that we didn't get to know Benny and you too Mom. You sound like my kind of person. It is so hard when they are sick. We sure are holding you in our thoughts and prayers. Sending lots of woofs and many purrs. Big hugs to you Mom, We know just how hard this all is.

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  76. Mummy and me wanted to help so we donated it wasn't much as mummy has my own meds to pay for but we just wanted to help you keep fighting,snuggles Speedy

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  77. We are sending lots of love, purrayers, and pawsitive thoughts from all of us at Prancer Pie. - Mommy, Prancer, Precious, and Princeton
    ((HUGS))

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  78. My heart hurts for you...Sending love and prayers for Benny Fight Like a Frenchie!

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  79. We're all here today FLAF with you Benny!

    Sending many more prayers your way...

    Hugs,
    Lily Belle & Muffin

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  80. So sorry to hear about Benny. Our Summer had liver cancer and she put up one heck of a fight so I know what you are going through. Hang tough and live in the moment. Keeping our fingers and paws crossed for you and Benny.

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  81. Oh my. Words aren't enough. But We share them here so you know you've got pals around the world who are aching with you.

    That damned cancer.

    ArOOOOOOOOO for Benny and Lily!!!!! Sending you love, Stuart

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  82. Hi there, I can't imagine going through what you are experiencing right now but I have lost beloved companions to the big c, so I know how your heart is hurting. Lifting prayers up for Benny and of course you.
    Hugs today.
    Noreen & Hunter

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  83. Hi, I'm so sorry to read about Benny. (First time stopping by your blog. Molly the Wally sent us.) It's so true what you say about remembering quality over quantity. Our last pup had bone cancer and passed at only 2 1/2 years old. She was definitely cheated in terms of quantity, but she had an amazing life and she taught us so much. Hang in there. No amount of time can ever be enough with our precious pups, so all we can do is make the best of the time we have.

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  84. I've come over from Mollie because we heard about your fight. I'm so sorry about Benny and I feel for you all. Our paws are crossed that Benny gives that liver cancer a good licking.

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  85. There are no words. In my thoughts and prayers continously and from this moment on.

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  86. Dropping in to say my heart goes out to you during this sad time with Benny. I seen the shout out for good thought for Benny on dognpawz blog when she was asking for good thoughts for my Norman also. I hope you have many good days with Benny and you will know when the time is right to say goodbye. Hugs to you and Benny.

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  87. Oh Benny, Lily and Mom. I somehow missed what happened and I'm bawling. Benny is a trooper, that I know, but right now I just want to scoop him up and snuggle all the problems away. How I wish it was that easy. Our hearts and prayers are with you. Smooch that boy (and his Lily) for me, OK?

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